Dazzle me

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Bangkok Photos

Finally...Our Bangkok trip photos.

This was the hotel that we were stayed.

The hotel Lobby...

The front desk reception area.

The small resting area...

Our bedroom...

Baiyoke Boutique is actually a 3 star hotel only.It is a modern outlook hotel.It is located just behind the Baiyoke Sky hotel.

It is actually a not bad hotel except that the room service food really taste badly...

The morning breakfast buffet wasn't that great either...

The hotel Lift...

Loverboy desperate act...

The small cafe in Chachucak Market (The weekend market in Bangkok.)

It's actually quite a cozy cafe ...With lots of different ideals of cocktails and mocktails drinks.

Loverboy and me shopping for a lamp...

The shopping bags are so heavy!!!

Camwhoring in the taxi...

Loverboy and me...

Supper in the back alley is a bowl of wanton mee...

Tastely wanton mee...

Enjoying the Spa in Baiyoke sky hotel:

"The Sidewalk cafe"

Loverboy eating thai fried noodles...

Love birds...

(If you have noticed that we are wearing the couple t-shirt!!!)

"A bit old fashion la...But what the hack!

I am in love and I am not afraid to proclaim !

The last day in Bangkok.Have to pray to the 4 buddha for blessing and good luck!!!

Huat Ahh!!!!

Been Here 1:50 PM

" Every girl is born to be a princess,just yet to meet Prince charming..."

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

"Loverboy"

Had just came back from Bangkok.
Bangkok trip was a short holiday trip for both Loverboy and me.
We had been having long arguments due to the many stress we had for the wedding.
The holiday had done us good by making us realised how much actually we loved each other.
And...How important Loverboy actually meant to me.
If I had a choice of not coming back...I wouldn't wish to be back at all.
Photos will be up in a few days time.

Coming back = Facing reality
Except that this time, I clearly knew that I wanted.
The marriage is right on the track.
As this is the man. I can't live without.

There is of course many issues that I had to clear up.

"Please don't assume about me.I am what I am today .Is neither because of how I looked nor how I was born.But for the downsides and bumps in my life that made me to what I had become.I am hurt ample times from people judging me.Although I can't escape fully from blames.But not many knew whats wrong.Save me from questions for those were my secrets.And everyone had secrets..."

I needed more time then usual.I needed more time to believe.I needed more time to trust.
All these to face reality...

I am trying to make things right from now onwards and for those who cared... to have faith in me.
I believed god had answered my prayers and sent Loverboy to me.
He made me felt ,how lucky I am to have him.He made me walked through my nightmares and still brought me fairyland.
I thanks God for everything...

And thanks Loverboy, for loving me.

Been Here 1:13 PM

" Every girl is born to be a princess,just yet to meet Prince charming..."

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Is there The One?

"Would anyone ever be truly ready?
Is there really THE ONE?
I think there isnt, just someone who treats you well and respect you and want to give you the best and tries his best to make you happy ,even if you are not in doubt now, and you feel he is the one.. that doesnt mean that you will not divorce in future..."

Been Here 4:23 AM

" Every girl is born to be a princess,just yet to meet Prince charming..."

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Save Me

Lots of changes ...Lots of decision makings.
Lots of question marks .

All of the sudden,
I am getting marry soon.
On sept 21 this year.
Why sept 21?

It's my parent's birthday...
Loverboy's parent's wedding date.

And don't get the wrong ideal,it wasn't a short gun marriage ,but it was because at that every moment , "The feeling was right."
I was very busy with the wedding stuffs...
but things have pretty much settled now.

I had also quitted my job in pub33 and felt very bad about it.I ended my job in a very BAD MANNER.I didn't believed that I did it.But I did it!
I guess I had let Sonia down.I really felt guilty.But being in that situation, it was really difficult for me to carry on working there.
Hope to have her forgiveness...
I had totally forgotten my main purpose of being there... To help her.
I didn't handle the situation well enough.I am too straight forward.I should have a u-turn or reverse gear or something.
Rather then ,I banged straight to the wall.

Alot of misunderstandings I had with my friends too.
I have notting to prove that I really did explained. But I sweared over my dead body that I didn't make this up. I was very upset at first.But after long thoughts since it's like I said... A misunderstanding. I shouldn't had bothered and pondered so much about it.
So whats the hack? Friends do not bare hates. Forgive and forget...

I feel grateful to Loverboy,as he had always wanted to give me a beautiful wedding and the best of what he could give.
This Marriage stuffs had been both heaven and hell for me.
There were arguments about the different views we had for the weddings , but we would often settle our arguements within a day time.Things didn't get too out of hand until yesterday....

I feeling lost now.

The wedding was announced... Money spent... Efforts made...

What can I do now?

I need my girlfriends.
I need answers.

I had fallen from my heaven and forced to face hell.

I want to run away.
If I can...

Been Here 3:06 AM

" Every girl is born to be a princess,just yet to meet Prince charming..."

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Happy vs Sad

These few days have been filled with both happy and unhappy moments.
Work had been the same.
Except that loverboy had been coming over the pub almost everyday to give a helping hand.
Sometimes looking at him from a far,I wondered what will be the out come of this relationship?
Too many doubths still I supposed.
I promised myself that I will still try to give in my best shot,as he wasn't the one who brought me all those pain.It's only fair for him.
It was yesterday,when all my doubths became answers...
My eyes were barely opened , when I blinked and blinked again.
Looking harder this time round...
A bouquet of flowers were left beside me.
I wasn't sure if the flowers were meant for me. As it would be a great embarassment if I get head over heels excited with it,then loverboy proclaim that I wasn't meant for me.(Because we been heading over to one of his friend's Chalet later.)
So...
I did the next best thing.

"Who this belong to?"
"It's for you."
"Why did you buy this for?"
"I always wanted to give you a few days ago, but the flowers weren't fully bloomed yet.I wanted you to have the best..."
"There need not to be any occasion to give you a surprise. It's my duty to bring you laughters and smile.Because You were someone I loved."

I was moved...
I managed to fight back my tears for the first few minutes.Then I failed!
Tears rolled down my cheeks.
And the best part was , he was there to wipe of those tears and hugged me.
Sealing a kiss on my forehead.
Everything was perfect!!!

Loverboy bought me a brand new 8GB N95 once he knew my Mobile spoiled.
Loverboy bought me the limited Pink Hello Kitty camera when he knew I am attracted to it.
Loverboy bought me a bottle of perfume when he is actually getting one for himself.
Loverboy bought me a jersy when I mentioned that I wanted to buy one.
Loverboy brought me Love...

In just a short period of time...
Maybe it's the honey moon period.
I wanna enjoy it while it still exists ...
Or maybe or just...maybe the best is yet to come:)

Okie...
Now for the unhappy parts.
Busy handling both the new relationship and work. Have been missing out moments with my friends.
I didn't like the feeling to lose them.Hopefully I will get their understanding and get everything back well on track.
My lateness had been a problem I have been facing from the past.
I am always late for everything!!!
I felt so guilty when I didn't managed to turn up on time to help Sonia and Xiao Bui out of their first business together.
I didn't managed to turn up to Loverboy friend's chalet also,as the pub had encountered some problems and I felt I need to be there.
There were many ways of handling the situations.Perhaps it was my character that every problems that I encountered I will make sure that it was fully settled .Then I will not ponder about it.
I had put in so much efforts in the pub that I felt bothered if things weren't going right.
So I felt I had to be there.
Especially if it involves my Love Ones.

Sorry to Sonia that I didn't managed to turn up.
Sorry to Loverboy that I did promised you to turn up with you,yet didn't ...
Thanks for your understanding....

This few days were "sway" for me.Things were not going that smoothly except for having loverboy.
Hope all these sway moments will end soon.

"Sway sway go away,
Don't ever come away.
Little Koji wants to play.
Please don't come again..."

Been Here 5:56 PM

" Every girl is born to be a princess,just yet to meet Prince charming..."

Friday, April 18, 2008

My knight in shiny Armour???

Sorry !!! Had been busy handling both my life and work.
Work had so far been fruitful.Business had definately picked up !
Younger crowds were soaring in.
All those hard work ... was worthwhile.

The pub now have a good team of waitresses.
Great team work , full spirit...
Work had been fun rather then chore.

Did alot of DIY to the pub.
Changing the designs. Well...Not to forget.I am good in designing. :)
Nice looking waitresses = Nice Looking Place.
I guess it's reasonable.

Got to know many different types of people since I started working there.
Definately an eye opener to me as I got to learn and understand alot more.
Different people coming from all different sorts of life.
Some was just far too complicated to understand.
Others...what the hack! Let's drink....Cheers. ;)

Among those crowds, I some how managed to picked up a few good ones , who had now became close friends to me.
And from those "good ones" , one was chosen...
and ...became my lover.

Things seems pretty weird as I am still so full in doubths about having relationships.
This lover of mine, was not at all a prince charming.
A black duck among the beautiful white swans.
But still he was well picked out by err.... Me and Sonia.
If you are wondering why Sonia?
It's because loverboy is a friend of Sonia's husband.
Friends had been encouraging me to move on. Since the breakup with Johnny.
None of the guys I met , made me willing enough to move a step forward.
Till loverboy picked me up from the misery and somehow became a console for me.
With friends supports and cheers...I finally moved.

Honestly I am still struggling.
I want to walked out of all these pain I am in.
Holding on to a hand I trust and to break free...

I no longer hopes for fairytales romance, just some "down to earth" relationship.
Keeping things simple rather then all the dramas I encountered.

As I am still trying to learn to love once again.

Goodbye Misery ... Welcome Happiness

Been Here 3:03 PM

" Every girl is born to be a princess,just yet to meet Prince charming..."

Monday, March 24, 2008

Hate myself.

It had been around...6months?
Everyday it had been a routine for me.
Upon waking up in the morning and before going to bed at night.
I would switch on my computer clicking to friendster, checking on the 'who view me' file.
Hoping to see his name.

He is still the only one in my mind.

I am influenced by him.
Like showing interest in amulet, listening to hokkien songs, and even being very superstitious.

For every temples that I visited in Bangkok. I made prayers of letting go, to forget and to bless him with happiness.

I am a fool living in my make believed world...

Been Here 7:54 PM

" Every girl is born to be a princess,just yet to meet Prince charming..."